Lately it has felt like I have run out of “wants.” I have had zero desire to buy anything, even groceries. I am not sure if it has been the polar vortex or that life has been too hectic but I have noticed it. I have even felt a little smug about it. “See, look at me, I am immune to consumeritis. No new designer handbags, yoga pants or mani-pedis for me.” That was the case until today.
Today I went to the mall.
I had no intention of visiting the mall, but I really wanted to buy the kids new winter coats for next year. Their current coats are trashed and I wanted to get new ones at end of season clearance prices. I didn’t want to wait and pay full price in the fall and let’s face it, winter coats are expensive. I tried to find coats at stand alone sporting goods stores, but they had very little stock left, so we set off to the mall.
I cannot remember the last time I was in a shopping mall.
Spring and summer stock is in and on display in all its splendour. I was mesmerized by the kaleidoscope of colors and patterns. We went there with a purpose, but I caught myself casually browsing. Then I found a black and white polka dot silk dress and it was love at first sight. It was perfect and it was only $40. I already have a white and black polka dot dress, but this one was lighter and had a fuller skirt and the polka dots were smaller. It matters.
Then I noticed beautiful pastel summer sling back shoes, soft leather totes, gauzy scarves, shiny new pots, delicate white china, a pillow top mattress, down feather pillows, a new floral table-cloth. I was ready to break out into a Sound of Music musical number right in the middle of the mall. “These are a few of my favorite things…..”
After an hour in the mall I was in a complete frenzy. I was getting high! Whoa!
I did not need or want any of those things yesterday. What changed? I don’t consider myself a recovering shopaholic but the desire to shop was intense. I was shocked at how easily I was sucked in. I want, I want, I want…
I did buy the kids new coats. I did not buy anything else but I would be lying if I didn’t admit I was tempted. I wish I didn’t go to the mall. I would be sitting here now thinking about the fact that I have lost the desire to shop, still feeling smug about my lack of wants.
Instead, I am sitting here thinking about a black polka dot dress.
Stay out of the mall my friends.
P.S. I also noticed a number of stores in the mall that had closed up and were empty. I don’t think it was to remodel either, it looked permanent to me. I guess retailers are hurting. Sorry but there isn’t anything I can do anything to help.