I’ll open this post with an embarrassing confession. I just learned how to make coffee in a coffee maker. All my life I have been drinking tea or instant coffee. Ack…I know right! And now that I know, I am in heaven and completely beaned out. I am drinking at least 1 ½; pots of coffee a day.
Anyhoo, with all that coffee, one might imagine that I would be blogging up a storm, but no, this poor messy blog has been neglected.
I do admit that it has been nice to spend some time away and examine, reflect and ponder. A major theme for me this year is about balance. Blogging has without a doubt contributed to some imbalance in my life so I will be working on a schedule that will help restore that precious balance I am looking for.
I am also questioning my desire for financial independence. Don’t get me wrong – I still want FI and I am staying the course BUT I do question my reasons for wanting it. Why? A comment from my dear husband. One day he was especially frustrated with the absence of cable TV in our house and blurted out,
“We are all SUFFERING because you want to quit your job? Is that what this is all about?”
Me – Gulp.
Him “You are stressed out and all this focus on money is stressing you out more. Your stress is making me stressed.”
Me – “Oh, oh.”
So I am wondering how much of this money focus is unhealthy, an effort to bring order to chaos and a way to quell my own anxiety. Anxiety – what an ugly word.
A couple of other things I have realized over the last few weeks:
- If nothing else changes, we are 10 years away from retirement. 10 years!
- We cannot reduce those 10 years without selling our house and moving to more modest home.
- Trying to squeeze our budget is a fun and worthwhile activity.
- None of the financial misfits in my life made ANY crazy, bonehead, bizarre, laughable money comments over the holidays. I am shocked. I was hoping for some blog fodder and entertainment. Some of them have actually started to save money for a rainy day. (I am secretly proud of them!)
As time goes by, it is getting increasingly difficult to find savings but I will keep trying. A few notable examples from this previous month
- Electricity win! We turned off the stupid hot tub for the winter. Our December usage was 43% lower than last December.
- Loyalty rewards – cashed in $50 against purchases
- Our local scrap yard has started paying for clothes. They buy for scrap value, not resale so I am in the process of rounding all of our clothes that are not fit for sale or donation and we will be scrapping this month. I will share in next update how much we made.
- A friend gave us a nice leather sofa for the garage. (Man cave) The garage is well outfitted with sofa, TV, stereo, bar refrigerator, heater.
- Love affair with library – resumed. Right now reading Flow by Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi. Apparently this book will illuminate the way to happiness.
That’s all I’ve got for now. I’m off to top up my coffee. Thank you for visiting.